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Finding My Peaceful Place

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To some people this is a town full of nothing, to me this is my heaven on earth. This is my place of peace and somewhere I can go to enjoy this beautiful world we are on and a place to reflect on all the good it has to offer. I guess I’ve been lucky enough to enjoy a big city so that I can truly appreciate what this type of life can offer me.

Life is too short to not enjoy the things and people around you. Where is your happy place?

I Have Flaws

I really wanted to write a post on Thursday night and decided to wait until I could get my thoughts together about the whole situation because I was not sure how to talk about what happened without letting a lot of emotion come through and sounding like a jerk. Even after a few days have passed now I still may sound like a jerk but here goes nothing…

On Thursday I posted the following message:

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I will admit that I was a little taken aback buy the following comment but I can understand why he may have been upset.

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The whole purpose of the post was a way for me to let people know that I am human and I judge (as everyone does…we all judge in one way or another). I was admitting a fault of my own and the person I was talking about was not chubby, overweight, obese or anything like that. This person would be what some would consider skinny or even underweight. My initial thought was that I hoped that she did not have an eating disorder. I was not happy with my judgement and I even looked away and tried to shake that thinking from my head but it was there…it was my first thought.

I tried to reply to my friend but it made him more upset and he proceeded to tell me that any “real bodybuilder” would say the same thing he did about me and that they will always work to lift people up and not bring them down. After his last comment he deleted me from his “friends” list and I also decided to delete the entire post.

I’m sorry that I upset someone when I admitted a fault and told the truth. I’m sorry that I’m human and I’m not perfect. I also realized that its possible he set me on this pedestal and I guess I did not know ho two handle it. Just because I’ve lost weight does not mean that I’m perfect. I work on myself everyday and I try to notice the faults in myself that I don’t like to see in others but the reality is that I’m human and I have faults.

I;m not upset that he deleted me but I am upset that his first response was to get so angry instead of trying to understand why I said what I did. I guess I can’t make everyone happy and I know that this day in age we can come off different than we mean to when we write out words instead of speak them. I also know that some words should not be written or spoken.

What happened with the post bothered me for a longer period of time than I really care to admit but you can’t please all the people, all of the time.

What are your thoughts?

National Peanut Butter & Jelly Day

In honor of National Peanut Butter & Jelly Day I would like to share with you my favorite version of this all time classic. It’s really simple really and this picture is actually from the other day when we had strawberries. I happened to have this alone and not on a rice cake, wasa cracker or pita bread but those are all good options too.

I’ve never really been a fan of jelly (even as a kid) but I can’t imagine it tasting better than what I have here. Let me know if you do this too.

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I’ve been taking this week to work on my meals and workouts again. I’ve been a bit of a slacker and I’m past the “I’m in bulking season” and I’ve moved to “I’m uncomfortable in my own skin” stage. It could be that my period is due any day now so I feel kinda gross and bloated. That never really helps plus my cravings seem to go through the roof during this time too.

Ok, I’m going to end this here but I will be back soon. I just did not want this day to slip away without sharing one of my recent favorite snacks.

My Transformation Picture

IMG 9643 My Transformation Picture

Last week I was brave enough to share my “before and after” picture at my highest known weight compared to where I was at my last show. I don’t really consider this a before and after picture because my journey is not over and I’m going to continue to grow and evolve. I just keep improving and I feel amazing when I look at this picture. It’s not easy to get up in front of a bunch of people and ask to be judged but I did it and would not give it up for anything.

I was asked by several people for the picture and I figured there is no reason to hide it and to be honest I hope it inspires at least one person to show that with dedication and support anything can be done. I won’t turn this is to a long post because I believe the picture speaks for itself.